Some Days...

Some days you just want to be left alone. It's not hard to remember those days when you were a moody teenager and nothing during the day seemed like it was going the right way for you.

And as you got older you felt like this can't keep happening..I'm an adult now! I won't allow my life to take these types of twists and turns that make my insides knot up into twisted pretzels that take a xaxan to unravel. but it happens adn we all remember what it would feel like...

You got up only to find out that your mom ate the last bowl of your favorite cereal, at lunch you find out you forgot your lunch money and feel like a fool for having to borrow some from your best friend.

You look into your book bag only to see that you forgot your homework for the second time this year and your favorite teacher tells you how dissappointed they are in you. On the way home, it starts to rain and you didn't bring your umbrella and while a car drives by...they spray you with a huge puddle. When you get home the door is locked and you don't have your key so you have to crawl through your bedroom window.

Later that night when everyone gets home you just want to be left alone to cry about the horrible day you had but your parents don't understand what could have been so horrible... I mean it's just a school day!

Little did they know...

But as we get older and grow up thinking that things like this won't happen because we are adults, we come to realize that sometimes life just wants to give you the trash bin and there's nothing you can do but smile and move onto the next big disaster that comes along.

My favorite bumper sticker is...*Somedays you are the windshiled and some days you are the bug*

Either way you are screwed.

Just when you think things are looking up...

Just when you think things are looking up and getting back to normal....

Ok, so I didn't have a chair delivered, but I really hate it when things happen that I have no control over. Am I a control freak? Well no, but I don't like unexpected bad things to happen either.

Everything was going good, I'm feeling better. Ken has a cast on his arm that is going to be there until May 19th and it looed like the spray I got is getting rid of the mites my rats had.

Then...I tried to order a movie from Pay per view and it wouldn't let me. I call the cable company and think they can just reboot my dvr and he tells me I haven't paid my bill this month. What? Um..yes I did. But they never got the check.

The mailman strikes again.

I put the cable bill and the telephone bill both out in the outgoing mail at the same time and they didn't get it. So I had to pay for the bill with a check by phone and that cost me an extra $10.00

Now I have to figure out if I should cancel the first check that they never got or not. I am thinking yes, I should, but that's another $30.00 to put a stop payment on a check.

I am thinking about paying all of my bills online but as often as people get hacked..I'm just not sure and what if something happens to my computer? What then? I'm so irritated.

Worldwide Cookbook Blog

Here's a blog you all should take a look at.

http://worldwidewardcookbook.blogspot.com/2011/04/secret-giveaway.html

They have all sorts of fun stuff and the occasional contest as well. Go take a look and see what neat stuff they have. They even have some really easy recipes that I might try.

My Bookshelves are Out of Control

I knew that I was running out of room on my bookshelves and that's why I decided to buy two wall hanging book shelves because I don't have any more floor space either. I've tried weedling down the amiunt of books I keep...but that never works...they are all 'keepers'. If you are a reader like me you know what I'm talking about.

I thought it was funny, the other day the mailman asked my hubby what are in all the little packages he keeps delivering for me and Ken told him it's mostly books that his wife wins, buys, gets for free, ect..

The mailman looked at him very seriously and told him he should get me some help before it gets out of hand. My mailman thinks I am a book hoarder! I'm not even kidding. Ken told this guy that I have about 2000 books and he went off...I mean literally went off about how it's dangerous to ahve so many books and he should put a stop to it right now. That these little apartments can't store that many books without someone getting hurt. I kid you not, Ken said the mailman was just letting loose. lol

But anyway, I expect to be buying a couple more books with the Amazon.com gift card I should be getting for doing some surveys. Hey, I spend a little time doing surveys and get free books. I think that's a fair exchange. I could buy other stuff on Amazon and some times I do like rat food and toys and a few days ago since Ken said that I never ever get him anything with my gift cards, I bought a Figi's sausage and cheese sampler. I think he will be very happy.

Now I'm off to make some more room for those books I'll be getting next week. LOL

Had a small Health Scare Over the Weekend

The other morning I woke up and I was having slight chest pains and shortness of breath. I figured it would go away and waited most of the day until it got worst and at 2pm called an ambulance to come check me out. My blood pressure was really high but the heart monitor said my heart looked alright so I went to the ER just in case. I had all sorts of tests on my heart and they all came back clean. But they found out I do have an irregular heart beat (arrythmia) but it's nothing to worry about. My doc said a lot of people have it but most don't feel it and never know they have it, the fact that I can feel it when mine beats weird threw me into a full blown panic attack, which cause my heart rate to elevate and make my blood pressure go through the roof.

I've also had an infected cyst on the back of my shoulder for the past 3 weeks and didn't have it looked at...because again I thought it would just go away...it didn't. (I'm really stubborn that way). The darn thing turned into an abscess that was huge and terribly painful and he talked me into letting him take that out too.

But they let me come home after keeping me in the hospital over night and keeping me up all night running tests. They gave me one short of morphine for the chest pain and wouldn't you know it...it made me sick. Then when they did the CT scan with iodine contrast the iodine contrast made me sick and they had to keep giving me anti nausea meds all night. Fun night.

But at least I know the irregular heartbeat I keep feeling isn't anything to worry about, and that darned abscess is now gone..even though he left a big hole in the back of my shoulder to heal closed on its own..yuck.

I scared my family half to death because I hardly ever get really sick and haven't been in the hosipital in forever.

Oh and hospital beds suck...my butt hurts from sitting in it. lol

They took blood so many times over the course of that day, that night and all the next morning. I also had 3 EKG's, A Chest X-Ray, an Echo of my heart and a CT Scan of my lungs to make sure there were no blood clots. They did a full work up and checked for any possible heart attack signs or symptoms they could think of.

It seems that I have some sort of irregular heart beat that isn't going to hurt me and other people have the same thing and enever know it because they can't feel it thumping in their chest. I can feel it thumping in my chest like my heart is stopping and I could see it on the heart monitor I was hooked up to. All the doctors said that I had a panic attack when I started feeling the thumping from the irregular heart beat and then started getting muscle spasms in my chest, which led me to have an even bigger panic attack where I had shortness of breath, dizziness and numbness in my arms and then my blood pressure spiked way up when the ambulance got here because of everything. But now that I know what I'm feeling it doesn't worry me, I just have to learn to live with the thumping in my chest.

I've also gone on a diet and started walking a little more. I really don't want to end up in the hospital ever again. That's absolutely no fun what so ever.

I think my doc was more concerned about the abscess on my shoulder than anything else.

I was an idiot and let it go for 3 weeks and it got really bad. By the time a doc looked at it, it was about 3 inches round and almost 2 inches high sticking up off my skin. The doc really gave me a lecture about letting something like that go. But I thought it would just go away at some point...in the future sometime. Eh, live and learn.

Keeping Busy

So this weekend Ken is in California dog sitting for his sister while she is gone. So I've been keeping myself busy. I put together my corner wall bookshelf yesterday, which was easier than I thought it would be. Especially with the terrible instructions they give you. It was a page with a few pictures and some of them made no sense. I finally figured out what the little plasic things were after reading reviews on Amazon, where I bought it. They were wall anchors to screw the shelf to the wall, not that I could figure that out by the pictures in the instructions. Either way, it is up and now I have room for about 50 more books. lol Good thing because I just ordered 5 more from Amazon.

I've been wanting to read Big Bad Beast by Shelly Laurenston and Primal Bonds by Jennifer Ashley..so I ordered both of those and a couple of others.

Review: Wicked Pleasure by Lora Leigh

Review of Wicked Pleasure by Lora Leigh

Blurb:

Jaci Wright has been running from the Falladay twins, Chase and Cam, for seven years now. Fears of the desires they arouse in her, and the knowledge of the relationship they wanted with her, spurred her to run, to find a life that kept her traveling the globe and out of their reach.

But now life has come full circle. A new job has placed Jaci in the Sinclair mansion with Chase and Cam. And they're tired of waiting. It's hard enough to face accepting a relationship with two men rather than just one, but gossip and the tattered tales of juicy secrets fill the society she now moves within. Can Jaci face the world knowing she's a lover to both men, or will her hesitancy and her fears destroy her chance of happiness forever?


My Review:

Seven years ago Jaci runs from both Cam and Chase when she learns that she isn't just about to sleep with Cam but with his twin brother Chase as well. At the time Jaci is a virgin but has wanted Cam for years and even though he thought she knew what coming to his home would entail, she had no idea that he wanted to share her with his twin brother.

Seven years later Jaci comes to Virginia to do a decorating job for one of her friends, Courtney. But what she gets is way more than just a job, she comes face to face with flirty Chase and then later Cam who makes it very clear he and his brother plan on having her in ways she can only imagine.

Jaci also finds out the there's more to the decorating job than she could ever imagine. There's a super secret club that the brothers are a part of and she will have to get over her shock at what goes on there before she can do her job.

Jaci has secrets and so does cam, but neither of them are willing to let the other one in until the very end of the story.

This is Lora Leigh's 9th book in her Bound Hearts series. I have really liked all the books so far but I did have a few small problems with this book. First, Jaci doesn't love Chase but she wants Cam so much even though she's never had another lover, she willingly has sex with both brothers but only ever calls out Cam's name.

There were glimpses where Jaci had been abused by a couple in this story and yet when cam spanks her, she has no problem with it. It would have been a little more believable to have her be scared at first and the memories of being whipped come back. Then bring the teasing spanking into the story in a way to replace those bad memories with good ones with Cam, but that doesn't happen and it was a little unbelievable and I want the story I'm reading to be at least a bit believable.

The other thing that really bothered me is that Jaci kept saying in her mind that she saved herself for Cam and even seven years later she's never taken another lover....but she took her own virginity with a vibrator? When I read that I could not believe that had been written. What woman who is saving herself for a man takes her own virginity with a vibrator?

Chase's character is very under developed in this book. Instead of being the hero right along with his twin brother he comes off like a secondary character that wasn't given much thought. We really don't get to know much of him in this book.

While I really enjoyed reading this book for the most part, there were things about it that bothered me, but not enough to tell others not to read it. I still love Lora Leigh and will be reading more of her books in the future.

I learned Something New

My hubby Ken has had the bandages on his hand for a week or so now and he wanted to take a shower without having to worry about getting the bandages wet, so he had me take all the bandages off. But you could have blown us both over when I took that last bandage off. His doctor only told him that he used wires to fix his arm....he did not tell him that the ends of those wires were going to be poking out of his skin or that he would have to pull them out after his arm healed.

Ken and I were both looking a the 5 wires stiking up out of his hand and were like, well...how the heck is this gonna work? And how does he plan on getting them out?

I taped a trash bag over his arm so he could shower and then went to looking online about these wires. I didn't know they were called K wires, so I googled surgical wires and found so much stuff that didn't pertain to him. So I went to youtube because they have all types of medical precedures and within a few minutes I found them.

The doctor takes a pair of pliers, grabs the end of the wire and twists and turns it while pulling until it is pulled out of the bone. Some of these wires are down 5-6 inches into the bone.

I'm really surprised the doctor didn't tell Ken about this before he left...I'm really surprised. This is something a person needs to know, ya know. I hope Ken gives him hell for not letting him know what was under those bandages and what was gonna happen next time he goes in to see him.

But if you want to see K wire extraction and I know you do...here's a good video I found. Just fast foward to after they get the cast off...lol

Things are looking up

Happy Saturday everyone.

Well my hubby Ken came out of surgery very well. No complications as of yet, but he is still in quite a bit of pain. The surgeon said he used wires to put the breaks in his arm back in place that it was less intrusive and should heal faster.

You never really realize how much you use both your hands and arms until you can use one of them. I've been putting his socks and shoes on for him as well as cutting his meat and helping him put on deodorant. I remember how I felt when I partially dislocated my shoulder and he was helping me do all those things and more. You feel like your being a burden, but he's really not and I know he would do the same for me...he did.

His next doctors appt. is on the 20th, so we'll see what the doc says then.

Going to be gone for about a week

It's been a bad week for me, so I am taking a little break.
My husband broke his arm and is having surgery to fix it on the 6th and I'm hoping all goes well with that. But he is going to need me to help him do things he can't. Just having the half cast on right now is making it hard for him to do things because he can only use one hand.

So I'll be back after things settle down at my house again.

Don't do anything I wouldn't do...