Have you ever...

There are many things I haven't done. So have you ever....
Gone bungee Jumping?
Flown in an airplane?
Sang in a choir?
Had a child?

I've never been bungee jumping, I mean I would ahve to get all the way up to where you jump off in order to do that? Why the heck would I do that? I'm to afraid of heights to jump off anything. lol

I have flown in an airplane 3 times. never again. The first time I was about 5 years old and my lil brother was 2 years old, all I remember is him crying the entire time. The next tow times I was with hubby and our daughter who was a toddler. We had air turbulence and I'm a big girl so the seat belt didn't fit all the way around me in order to actually click into place. So if we had been in any really bad turbulance I would ahve hit the ceiling. Yeah, sounds like fun to me...NOT!

I have sang in a choir. I was in the school choir from 5th grade to 12th grade. It was the best time in my life. We went to hospitals and sang for the little kids who were sick.

I do have one child. A daughter who is now 18 years old. Wow, when did I get to be so old?

Why do I need it on?

So it's almost 2am. and I'm sitting here on the computer with my headphones on and the tv still on. My hubby comes out of the bedroom and asks why I have the tv on. I tried to explain to him that it feels weird in the living room when it's turned off. I can't feel the tv waves, the sound vibrations, the whatever the heck the tv is giving off and makes me feel better. lol

I don't know exactly what it is but it's calming to have the tv on, even though I put it on mute or just turn the sound down because I'm listeinging to my headphones. I just like it to be on when I'm out here.

So he said it's no different in here with it on than it is with it off. He trned it off and said, see, No difference.

Yeah right, I told him to turn it back on or I would because the room felt empty to me.

How weird is that?

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Do you ever feel like you're all alone?

I ask because I remember when I was back in high school and I was so shy and would spend the majority of my time alone in the library, just reading everything I could get my hands on. But always alone and felt like no one understood me and never would.

I kept a journal of my thoughts and last year I went through my 30 different journals that I had written during that bleak time in my life and decided to destroy them all. I know what I was feeling back then and now I know why and I know how to get out of those deep, dark funks when they come along.

I don't neen anyone else reading what I was thinking and if anything ever happened to me my family might have read them and I didn't want that so I destroyed all of them.

What I didn't know then was that I was suffereing from a clinical imbalance and it cause a really bad depression in me. I also had a thyroid problem which went untreated for 20 years and that caused all sorts of depression problems for me.

Now that the chemicals in my body are finally working right I can see how easy it is to fall into a depression or get depressed and I fight every single day not to let that happen again. It must also be some sort of hereditary issue because 2 of my brothers, my mom and my sister have all tried to commit suicide and are all dealing with depression. So I'm thinking there has to be some sort of 'depression' gene in my family.

Now I think how in this morld of millions of people is it so easy for some of us to feel completely alone, like no one else in the world understand what we are feeling.

I think now that we have the internet it has really helped with depression issues because we can reach out to others without actually having to see them face to face and for alot of people talking face to face with others is harder than typing to some unknown face on the internet. It's easier to talk to people who are'nt looking directly at you and knowing that you can get up and walk away from the conversation and not talk to that person again if that's what you want to do.

It's also easier to find others who feel the same way we do, even if we think we are the only one's in the whole world who are feeling the way we are at this moment.

So whether you are depressed, shy or just feel alone. Believe me, you are not the only one feeling that way and talking to others who feel the way you do can really be helpful.

Things I like...

Family My hubby and my mother.

Family.

Here's my dad and step mother.

Crittters. Pretty much any little furry critter is cute as heck to me. Rats, hamsters, gerbils and mice, I like.

Books!

I have way over 1000 books (Mostly romance) on my three book shelves and am always adding to them. I was selling some of my books on Amazon.com but then people starting lowering the prices of the used books to 1 cent. After the gas to drive to the post office to mail it, the envelope to mail it in, the money amazon gives you for the book just isn't work the hassle. So I just keep them now.

Movies!

I love a good horror movie. I am a Vampire nut! Love anything to do with Vampires, in books and in movies. Just can't get enough of them. The last movie I watched was Avatar and it was alright, not as good as I thought it would be.

Tv shows about Vampires. lol
I used to watch Moonlight and was upset when it was cancelled. I thought it was a good show.



Food and cooking.

I love to cook and I love to eat. I have a soft spot for chocolate truffles and only get them about once a year because they are so, so rich. But so good.



I like to write about small animals and how to care for them. It's nice when I get comments on my articles that are published on Associated Content, telling me that I helped someone with their rat, or hamster.



I like music. All kinds of music. I finally figured out how to put music on my mp4 player and have't stopped since. Now I even figured out how to download songs to my computer from CD's I have and transfer songs to my mp4 player.


Right now I am loving Adam Lambert. Great oogly moogly, that man is hot as hell! He has the most beautiful eyes.



Right now onmy mp4 I have all kinds of music.
Rihanna
3 Days Grace
Disturbed
Nightwish
Esme Denters
Oingo Boingo -dead man's Paradise. Brings me back to my teenage years lol

and all kinds of others.

That's all for now. :)

Why are Tv commercials so darn loud?

I know I'm not the only one who has noticed that over the years the loudness of tv commercials has gotten louder. Because Rep. Anna G. Eshoo of California has introduced the Commercial Advertisement Loudness Mitigation Act (the CALM Act) in Congress in an attempt to battle excessive noise. It has yet to be passed but enough people are upset about the loudness that it has made it's way to congress.

That should tell the tv people something, maybe that we don't like what they are doing. Seriously.

I was reading different websites question and answer pages about why the commercials are so loud and have found out how and why they do it.

The people who produce and have the commercials on tv aren't allowed to let the volume go over the loudness volume in whatever we are watching right before the commercial comes on. So if we are watching a movie and in the movie somewhere there is a really loud explosion (even if it only lasts for a second), they are allowed to let the entire commercial reach the loudness level of that explosion.

They do it because they think we will look and pay attention more to the tv and what's being advertised on it when it's louder, thus they want to get out attention.

It's stupid thinking on their parts, really. I love my DVR and use it for just about every program I watch now. I can fast forward through every single commercial there is and I love that.

How long did you keep up the Christmas Decorations?

I just got the last of the Christmas stuff put back in boxes and in my closet. I had three small tree's and 8 large boxes of knick knacks to put away. lol When I started putting stuff away I was thinking to myself...I am not doing this again next year. But then I think that every year and every year I buy one more decoration and add it to the growing pile to put out and pack away.

I was not the only one though, because I saw a christmas tree in the dumpster out back...lol

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UMC Hospital In Las Vegas

I don't know how many people ahve heard about this woman who went to the emergency room at UMC and didn't know she was pregnant. She waited in the E.R. for several hours complaining about severe abdominal pain and when the other patients saw how much pain she was in they were telling the staff they she could even go in before them. After several hours and not getting seen, she couldn't take the pain anymore and went to Valley Hospital's Emergency room where the same exact thing ahppened...so she went home thinking the pain would go away...2 hours later she delivered a dead baby at home and her husband called an ambulance. Now UMC is under investigation.

I know first hand how bad the staff in the Emergency room at UMC is. A few years ago I went to my personal Doctor with a 104 temp and bad coughing and just really bad pain throughout my entire body. He gave me paper work to take to the ER at UMC and said they would call a doctor that worked at my doctors office who was on call there at that time and get me seen right away. But when I got there and showed them the paper she told me that I needed to hold onto the paper until I was seen in the back by a doctor and the wait time was a few hours. My temp had gone up to 105F and she gave me 2 tylenol and when I told ehr I hadn't been able to keep anything down she said either take them or she would tell the nurse in the back I had refused the tylenol.

I took them and sure enough 10 minutes later I vomited them right back up. She just looked at me and said nothing. I had a plastic vomit container in my lap because I was in too much pain to keep walking to the bathroom, so she knew everytime I vomited which was every 15 mintes for the 8 hours I was in the waiting room. I had been sick for 2 weeks but it got to be so bad I finally went to the doctors office.

When I was finally called in the back to see an actual doctor, I gave her the paperwork my doctor had given me and she called the doctor and he was very upset I had waited for over 8 hours to get seen. He told her what tests he wanted ordered and when she went to do the paperwork I heard on eof the other doctors asking who the hell ordered all these tests...She told him that my doctor who sent me here did. He just shook his head.

I was put on an IV, chest x-rays were taken, blood was taken and I was put on oxygen and then given a breathing treatment and after 6 more hours in the back...I was told that I had Pnuemonia and The Flu and one of my lungs was half way filled with fluid and that's why I was having such a hard time breathing. If I had waited one more day I would have needed a chest tube.

I learned a lesson that day.....I will never again go to the ER at UMC unless I call an ambulance because their staff up front as asses. The actual medical professionals in the back treating you are nice and they do what they are suppossed to but the people up front who have no real medical training are the ones who determine who gets seen next.

As many people that go to the UMC ER, you would think they would have more than 45 beds, because at any given time there are 80 or more people in the waiting room.

Funny Horoscopes

I found these on TheOnion.com

Aries Mar 21 - Apr 19
Turns out it's not your relationship with your father that's been eating you up inside, but rather a three-foot long parasite lodged directly below your kidney.

Taurus Apr 20 - May 20
It takes a real man to admit when he's made a mistake. However, now that you're a woman, you can blame the sex-change operation on someone else.

Gemini May 21 - Jun 21
Due to its high incidence of hijinx, tomfoolery, and puns, you'll finally decide to stop answering doors during knock-knock jokes.

Cancer Jun 22 - Jul 22
The stars, in their infinite wisdom, indicate that the cute blonde you've been pointing them out to couldn't be more bored if she tried.

Leo Jul 23 - Aug 22
You'll continue to grow as a human being this week, much to the relief of all those geneticists.

Virgo Aug 23 - Sep 22
Home is where the heart is. Specifically, beneath the floorboards of the common room.

Libra Sep 23 - Oct 23
Every day on Earth is like a beautiful gift from God, which is thoughtful and all, but you'd probably prefer something you can actually use.

Scorpio Oct 24 - Nov 21
Juggling three young children isn't easy for any mother, but then, that's why you start with tennis balls and bowling pins first.

Sagittarius Nov 22 - Dec 21
Nothing will be what it seems this week, especially breakfast sausages.

Capricorn Dec 22 - Jan 19
Take heart: There are people with bigger problems than yours, and acting like you care about them will get you laid.

Aquarius Jan 20 - Feb 18
You said you'd never forget all the little people who helped you along the way, but since becoming rich and famous you haven't thought about those midgets once.

Pisces Feb 19 - Mar 20
Were it officially sanctioned, judged by an impartial panel, and taking place somewhere other than your kitchen late at night,† you'd pretty much shatter all existing hot dog eating records.

What's the dumbest thing you've done this month?

I was gonna say what's the dumbest thing you've done last year, but then I'd have to much to write...lol

I ask because I did something today that was completely eye roll, hit yourself upside the head- stupid. I drove my car over to the CVS drug store just around the corner from me. It's actually just one long drive way over and through the hole in a large cement wall but I drove my car.

When I got home and put away all of the things I bought, I went to go get back in my car to go to starbucks with my guft card and get a free frappuccino and my car was gone!

I was frantic, I was sure someone had stolen it. I went inside about ready to call the police and report it stolen when I remembered that after I bought my stuff from CVS, I walked back home and left my car in the parking lot of CVS!

Sure enough when I walked outside and looked across the parking lot, there was my car right where I parked it. lol

I still don't know why I walked home.

Cancer scare.

My mom went through radiation for her throat cancer over ten years ago and she has been cancer free since then. Her mother, my granda had cancer is her ling, and breast and had a lumpectomy as well as half a lung removed and she recovered and was cancer free until she died in 1988. My family has been full of people who've had cancer and have died and my brother is sure he's going to get it one day because of all the cancer in the family.

I made up my mind along time ago that if I ever got any type of cancer I would not put myself though all those horrendous tests, or treatments. I've had enough surgeries and tests done on me, I'm done. I hate going to the doctor and I'm sure she hates me coming in because all we do is argue about what I will and won't do.

Anyway, my husbands doctor told him all the stomach problems he's been having for the past 2 years might be because of some sort of abdominal cancer and he is sending him for some tests. We go for the abdominal ultrasound on the 7th and to a Gastrointestinal specialist on the 18th. I'm sure that GI doc will have all sorts of nasty tests for hubby to take. But he's willing to go through them in order to find out what he has and he said he's willing to do any treatments to get rid of whatever it is too.

I swear, opposites attract because we have totally different views on this subject but all I can do is be there for him while he's going through all this. But I tell you, I won't have another surgery for any reason. It's just not happening and I've allready gone to a lawyer a few years ago and had a living will drawn up and put Hubby as my executor. He did the same with his and I'm his executor...just in case either of our families has a problem with anything.

The thing is while we have lived together for more than 20 years...we aren't legally married and in the state of nevada there's no common law marriage...which is ridiculous. So we had to get papers drawn up to make sure there were no problems.

Waxing

I got a flyer left on my car the other day when I went to the book store that said one of the little salons in the area are having a special on waxing, bikini as well as eyebrows.

Now I've tried plucking my eyebrows a few times and it hurt! Seriously. So Now they are au natural as is the rest of me. *giggle*

I looked online about bikini waxing and most of the sites said the first few times would hurt and afterwards it wouldn't hurt as much. I don't see how that's possible. Plus you have to lay down on a table with all your lil bits just out there for someone to see and apply hot wax too.

Now I'm not into pain and if it really hurts and I start screaming...*giggle*...I wonder if they have a large muscled man in the back that will come out and knock you out...*I don't need a black eye along with my hurt patootie*...or if she would just tell you to suck it up and keep pulling wax from you...

In the end I decided to just throw the flyer away and stay away from any hot wax.

Dreams

So I've always had some really crazy dreams, most of my life I've had nightmares and night terrors. So when I have a funny dream I have to share it because it doesn't happen all too often.

My dream last night...

I was in the bathroom putting on my makeup and this little hairless rat ran out from under the sink. He was wearing this little red and white sweater that had writing on it. It said, "I belong to dale Ernhart Jr. Please return me if you find me." And there was a phone number.

So I called the phone number and sure enough Dale Earnhart Jr was frantic that his little rattie had gotten loose again and said he would be right over. He asked me if the rat was alright and I told him that he was sitting in my arms eating a dog biscuit. There was a long silence and he asked me if the rat had bitten me when i tried to pick him up. I said no he came right over to me.

He said he would be right over.

I hear a knock on the door and he was standing there with three large pepperoni pizzas and a check for $100.00.

He looked amazed that the rat was letting me hold him and said that he doesn't usually take to strangers. The rat started kissing (licking) his face as soon as he got him and then I woke up.

lol

I think I want another rat...

The "I can see all of you" X-ray at the airlines

Have you heard about this x-ray machine? It's also called the "Whole Body Imaging" scan. Have you seen this? No? Well here ya go..

http://privacycoalition.org/stopwholebodyimaging/

This is a virtual strip search and more and more aairlnes are proposing to have them. Here in Las Vegas they are used on internation flights and I heard that other airlines are going to be getting them next year.

I plan on signing this petition to stop these virtual strip search x-rays because it really seems like an invasion of privacy to me. I can only guess at the things the people who would be looking at these screenings would be saying to one another or to their family members after work. And what happens to the imprint after you go on your merry way onboard the airline? Is it stored in a data base for others to look at and laugh?

I will never, ever fly on a plane again regardless of the use of this machine. With so many problems popping up with the airlines, I think people should boycott the airlines until they get their shit together.

I just wanna know...

What's up with the Im, chat, texting or emails instead of an actual phone call or handwritten letter?

You know what made me think of this? I used to write letters all the time, and then we got a computer and now I write letters jsut to the people who don't have a computer. I still call my mother almost everyday and I call my brothers. My sister called me the other night and we talked...not texted.

I don't have a cell phone and I don't need one, I don't want to be texting with my family instead of actually talking to them. I used to put my Im on when I was on the computer but I got so irritated with it that I don't turn it on anymore.

I want people to have courtesy when someone is chatting with them in IM and if they want me to converse with them, do the same for me. Otherwise it's just annoying. I used to love talking to some people on yahoo Im, others, I just sent an IM now and then, cause I am not gonna converse to LOL HAHA LOL LOL :) HAHA LOL LMAO. I'm not asking for a super IQ chat here, most people know me to be a tad goofy and sometimes there is a thought inspiring chat, but I'm not a difficult person to talk to. I only ask for people not to be idiots. Is that too much to ask?

When was the last time someone under the age of 18 wrote a handwritten letter because they wanted to? Not many I'm guessing.

Fire Safe Cigarettes

My husband got to talking about how the cigarettes have changes since they became Fire safe. I don't smoke, never have so I didn't notice anything different with them. Well, except for the cussing all the time from hubby because his cigarette goes out after less than a minute if he doesn't inhale on it.

That's the big thing on these cigarettes, you either inhale alot...alot more than some people were doing before they became fire safe, or your cigarette goes out and you have to relight it.

I was doing some research online about these cigarettes and found out that in order to make them fire safe, they had to use chemicals that have harmful proven side effects.

People are coughing more, getting headahes, light headed and sick to their stomaches just to name a few.

I don't think most people know that there are chemincals used in these new fire safe cigarettes than are more harmful now. Even the glue they use to seal the cigarette was changed and now has more chemicals in it to make the cigarette fire safe.

How crazy is that?

Now people who used to light a cigarette and for the most part just hold it in the hand and take the occasional puff...are having to take a puff every minute in order to keep it from going out...Does that sound like it's safer for people as well as being fire safe? I think not.

Great gifts..

This year I got great gifts but the best was having my entire family over for christmas dinner. That and the fact that everyone got along..lol

This year I received gift cards to:
Starbucks
Borders Books
Visa gift card
iTunes
and bath stuff, scarf and I bought myself a bunch of books with the points I turned into amazon.com gifts cards from the survey websites I have been taking surveys from all year.

My daughter got a huge surprise this morning when a neighbor came over with a brand new 10 speed bicycle for her. The neighbor had bought it because she thought she was going to lose her driverse licrense when she got a ticket, but when she went to court she got her license back and didn't need the bike. So she just gave it to my daughter. How nice was that?

Good news

So I just hear that airline passengers now have new rights. There are new rules regarding how long the airlines can keep people on the tarmack. After 2 hours food and water have to be offered now and after 3 hours they have to take the plane back to the gate and let everyone off. I think this is so much better than what had been happening. Some people have been stuck in planes for 18 hours or more with no food, no water and restrooms that didn't work. That had to stop.

Bunny

My husband found a bunny in the alley this morning. Now I need to find her a good home. I would keep her but my daughter is allergic.