I've been thinking of writing an autobiography or memoir, but it just never comes together for me, but I figured if I write one story at a time and post it on my blog maybe once a month, I can do that. Maybe one day I'll pull all the stories together and put them in a book but for now I'll just share some stories with you about my childhood and into adulthood. Some of the stories will be happy, some sad and some horrific because that was my childhood. But they will all be real, things that actually happened. If it seems like something that people enjoy reading maybe, I'll keep it going. These stories will not be in any kind of order; I'll just write them as they come to me.
Romeo
Trigger warning: There will be talk of assault, sexual harassment and lewd behavior with a minor.
I've had this story sitting in my drafts folder for a couple of years, not knowing if I would ever share this one or not. It was the hardest one to write.
When I was either 13 or 14, I am not sure which, but my brother, Billy was in elementary school and he would go back to the school after school and hang out with the security guard for the school, his name was Romeo. He showed my brother things around the school and since the guy was just in his 20's they talked guy stuff, I guess. I knew where to find my brother if I went looking for him. I only met Romeo a few times. One day when I went looking for my brother, Romeo told me he was waiting for him back in the office. He started walking that way and I just followed him.
Once we walked around the corner to the office, Romeo turned around really fast and pinned me up against the wall. He put his hand over my mouth and slapped me across the face. He told me that the office had sound and movement detectors and if I tried to move or scream, they would signal the police and he would tell them that I tried breaking into the office and I would be arrested.
He grabbed my shirt and made me go over to the Principal's office door where he took his key and opened the door and pushed me inside. He told me only he knew where the motion detectors were not working and he made me sit on the couch and told me that if I got up the motion detectors would go off and I would go to jail.
He pushed me down on the Principal's couch and pushed his hands inside my clothes. He assaulted me with hands and laughed when I cried. Then he abruptly got up, told me to fix my clothes and when I did, he pushed me out the office door and told me to run, which I did. I could hear him laughing as I ran home.
My mom wasn't home when I got home so I just went in my room and stayed there. I never told anyone what happened until years later when I landed myself in a psychiatric hospital. There I was able to talk about what happened and finally get some help for the trauma I held for a long time. I'm not sure my mom would have done anything even if I had told her because at that time she was addicted to PCP and cocaine. I didn't tell my brother because he was younger than me and couldn't have done anything and I didn't think the guy was any danger to my brother at the time. I was a kid myself so I had no idea what to do, so I just tried to forget about it and stayed away from him after that.
He saw me a couple of times when I waited for my brother after school and he tried waving me over to him and just laughed at me when I ignored him or walked the other way. But I made sure I was never alone with him again.
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Horrifying. I would hope that schools today have systems in place to assure children that they'll be listened to if they report such attacks. People like him belong in prison, but nothing can be done if nobody finds out. Not that it was your fault for not talking. It's the responsibility of adults to make sure children know they can speak up.
ReplyDeleteI agree. I had no one around me at the time that I could talk to.
DeleteThis Romeo certainly doesn't live up to his name. I'm so sorry you had to go through this.
ReplyDeleteNo he sure didn't. Thank you.
DeleteI like reading your story even if I didn’t like Romeo.
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DeleteWhat a horrible unspeakable cruelty done to a young girl. That you should live with this terrible memory all your life. It was certainly nothing but you would have encouraged and that's always the way with any type of sexual assault. The victim is innocent. I cannot imagine you having to go through this. I do hope that being able to write about it or speak about it does take some of the burden off of you.
ReplyDeleteI hope that if something like this happened to someone else that reading this will let them know they aren't alone.
DeleteWhat a horrifying experience!
ReplyDeleteIt was.
DeletePredatory male sexual behaviour so often goes unpunished. How awful that you were vulnerable to it. I hope karma, at least, paid him back over the course of the years.
ReplyDeleteI hope so too.
DeleteThat is so sick and disturbing, Mary. I'm so sorry for all you went through as a child.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
DeleteThat was violent!
ReplyDeleteIt was.
DeleteMotion detectors, right. Way to take advantage of a young girl who couldn't know any better at that age.
ReplyDeleteThat was sick as hell, and yet, it could have been even worse...not much of a consolation, I know. I can't wrap my head around all the abuse and pain you've been through in your life. If only you had had well-adjusted adults you could go to. But every one of them was in their own private hell.
You're right though and I had no idea about that at the time. That's very true, I had no one at the time to go to.
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DeleteTerrible. So sorry that happened to you 😢
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DeleteWhat a terrible thing to suffer an assault like that in a place where you felt you were safe. I'm glad you were able to get some healing later in life.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I appreciate that.
DeleteAnd, this guy was working at a school... but of course, his kind would be drawn to this sort of place and job. That was terrible for you.
ReplyDeleteit was bad that he was working at a school. Thank you.
DeleteI'm so sorry. That was a crime and he should have been locked up for that. And had to register as a sex offender. I'm sure you weren't the only one he did that to, and hopefully he was arrested at some point after that. Sick idiot.
ReplyDeleteI sure hope he was but I have no idea.
DeleteI can't tell you how sorry I am that you went through that. The sad fact is that the predators in schools are still there. My hope for you is that your heart and soul have healed. I know the memory never forgotten.
ReplyDeleteI'm ok now.
DeleteSuch an awful thing to go through, just awful. There is always so much evil about.
ReplyDeleteThere really is.
DeleteThis must have been such a very scary moment. Was it hard to write about? Some people just aren't good people, are they?
ReplyDeleteit was hard to write about. But if it helps someone else who experienced the same thing, then it's worth it. No, some people aren't nice at all.
DeleteWhat a horrible ordeal, Mary.
ReplyDeleteIt was but I got through it and that's good.
DeleteTurning pain into art is a gift and a blessing.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
DeleteI really hope he was repaid in some way.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to share stuff like this. I'm sorry this happened to you.
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DeleteThe mongrel (Australian Slang) to do that to you. I feel for you having to bottle is up for a long time, let alone what he did to you and frightened the life out of you, I should imagine.
ReplyDeleteYou did well to stay away from him after that, as he would only be a reminder and you writing the account of what happened brought it all back once again.
Take care, Mary and thank you for sharing such a private matter :)
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DeleteThat's terrible Mary, sorry to hear you went through this as a young girl. No one should. There really are a lot of b@st@rds in the world. These people do not deserve a life, honestly. :-(
ReplyDeleteI agree with you.
DeleteThank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry this happened to you, but am thankful you were able to find treatment eventually.
ReplyDeleteThank you, So am I.
DeleteWhat a terrifying and traumatic thing to have happen to you at such a vulnerable age. I'm so sorry! Thanks for finding the courage to share this story with everyone. I really admire you for surviving everything that you have.
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DeleteThat is horrible. I am so sorry. I want to find him and make him suffer
ReplyDeleteI hope someone did.
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