Monday, April 23, 2012

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger...

I would love to know who thought that up. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Is that really true for all of us? I'm not so sure. Sometimes the things we go through when we were younger shape they way we are later on in life, for the good or the worst. But sometimes the things that happen in life don't make you stronger, they just leave you feeling exhausted, frail and broken. 

A good friend of mine passed away last week and it's left me shaken. He was only 55 years old and so I never thought anything would happen to him, not for a long time anyway. This coming June 23rd will have been one year since my mom passed away. You just never know what little gem life is going to throw at you next and while I used to just take each day as it came, right now I seem to be in "Oh no" mode. That is, I'm thinking, "Oh No"..what's going to happen next. Oh no, why is my phone ringing, is it going to be bad news? Oh no, who's at my door...ect.

I really need to get out of this frame of mind, but I'm not sure how to right now. But I guess that's what life is..cycles of time where the water is calm and everything is moving smoothly with the occasional wave, storm or shark floating along the surface ready to bite you in the ass if you get too close.